I love holidays! Who doesn't? What I love most about holidays is being by myself doing what I want when I want. Obviously this can be a little difficult at times considering I have two young children and a husband. I often look at my single or childless friends and envy their lifestyle. I know that at times they look at my life and do believe that the grass is greener on the other side. Oh how to deal with it when you want everyone in your house to 'go away' for a while???
Don't misunderstand what I am saying, I love my children, I love my husband and I love the network that we have together as a family...and what makes it all the more better is I don't pretend to be 'susie-homemaker'. But I do feel, at times (lots of times at the moment) that there is something missing from my life.
Can anybody relate?
I beieve that I have kept my sanity, (and my family alive), because I haven't lost my identity. I am Darrin's wife, I am Dale, Juanita, Larissa and Billy's Mother, I am a daughter, a sister, Aunty, a friend. I am all of these things to many people, and I am blessed for that, but more importantly, I am Kaylene. I have not given up Me or MY time. I play netball , I scrapbook , I socialise with my friends. Sometimes this includes my family, and sometimes it doesn't.
ReplyDeleteThe bottom line I think is that sometmies when we are trying to 'fit the mould' it is very easy to forget our own original mould. I am not the same person I was at 17 or 21 or 30. None of us are. What fullfilled me in my early 20's just doesn't cut it now at nearly 36. That is ok. Because I am aware of the change in my needs, it is easier to say, "ok. I'm gonna try this direction now." Or "I need more alone time" Or "I need to be more creative"
...whatever it is at the time.
This DOES NOT mean that you are any less happy with being a wife and Mother. I believe by being true to myself, it makes me a more content and happier mother and wife because I am happy and content. My husband and children know that I love them, but they love me too, and want me to be happy as well.
I do relate...as I am sure many people do. And as to 'how to deal with it when you want everyone in your house to 'go away' for a while???' Just do it! Take some time away, send them away to a movie or something. It's great. It certainly puts a smile on my dial!