Simply happy.



from Rhonna Farrer's creative mind.

 I never was good at balancing.  Walking those narrow lines between compliance and pushing the boundaries.  It takes too much will power and patience to be compliant all the time, to accept things as they are not as they could be all while pushing the boundaries.  This, at times, can get you into trouble and be frustrating for those around you. 

I'd like to be able to not work where the limitations of compliance extend as far as following the road rules and pushing the boundaries means I can get messy and play with paint all day.

For sometime I have felt 'displaced' with where I am currently sitting, always feeling a little transient.  It's a conflicting feeling.  It reminds me that being accepting in the one job can lead to mundaneness and negativity.  Transiency (is that even a word?) on one hand keeps you interested in seeking out happiness and possibilities, but when it is not tempered by rationalisation it can lead to aggravation, impatience and confusion.  This is where the pendulum of life is currently swinging.  If I'm to change jobs...again... does that mean I am hard to please and too fussy or does it mean that I am constantly seeking other opportunities once again balancing self-doubt and possibility?

The lesson these past six months has been about perception and simplicity.  I thought that taking a 9-5 job would be simple.  How hard can it be?  You get up, get dressed, take the kids to school, go to work, complete jobs set for you and then repeat in reverse.  That's about as simple as it can get.  What this doesn't take into account is that simplicity is not black and white (I thought it was), no, simplicity has many shades of grey.  Simplicity, is what we perceive it to be.  When the kids are getting along and the house is tidy - that makes living 'simple'.  When you know what you are doing in a job and getting enjoyment - that's simple.  Does this mean that what we perceive to be simple is directly connected to happiness? I''m thinking so. That's my conclusion anyway. 

Happiness is at the core of all that we do, are and can be.  It doesn't matter how complicated or busy your life is.  If you are happy, then life is simple, and happiness my friends, requires no balancing skills at all, it just is a way of being.